mission complete

19/5 joned sista wedding.. invited me to came. live at bayu,klang.

i've approve that invite in group he made..
approve means JOIN ..
so, that mean i came to bayu.
in this discussion i not means to talking about him. i means He' n he is calling TxxxxxG..
its not easy to out and walk alone without permission.. i won't be a Lie.. i won't gave a lie in my reason..
But, in this situation i should be a Lying person...
i've spend 1week more times to thinking about this all..
finally i leave and throw alot of my egos away to talking to my elder sista..

At the night before the sun growUp..
i cannot sleep as well..
i just thinking bout the morning..
and said "what should i do"  "just away or hve a permission".
at the last to hv the ending  my problem. i hve permission from her.. and i'm away with a goodmood..

when i was arrive at the place..

i saw around there.. differends' #my feeling say

amon bring me to the place..
tenenet..
from my far sight at my front eyes..
i see 4guys came over us..
there is juned , zack, imran and mr.m
he gve her hand .. not to hold.. but as one intro of meeting..
settle one sight by sight and we just walk straight to the wedding..

arrived like arrived from kl to sndkn..
so i mean i arrive bcause sit down on the chair :)
*huh.. tired #sigh

look around again..
he beside me..
his mom saw me too..
grrr.. look her for awhile and look front again..
sorry..
he talk too much..
but i wont to talk..
he ask me to ate but i wont to eat..
i scared i will throw all the food ..
i scared to made any problem..
bcause , my feeling is nervouse so mch..

i wanna tell and make some to story.. but i blank..
idk to say anything..

all around looked on me like i've did something wrong..
*i looked on my body.. mybe hve smthing wrong.. but theres nothing..

*band sound so louded..
made my voice bcame down..
and i hate to talk..

haeril shot one of my picture.. and he's at my back..
huhuhuhu.. *i smile for the picture :)

yaya beside me.. hmm. but i still nothing to said.. just silent..
shes ask me. why u not join us till tonight..
and i reply the question.. # i can't. bcause i've told my sista that i just walk to ts only.. so i should back home .. "
and she just "ohh"

the sun change to the moon..
and the bright light change to darklight..
and i bcme worried at the times.
i looked clock on my tap phone
it was 5o'clock already..
i made result to back home at the times..
find for amon to bring me back to kl.
he's busy.. and he hven't at the place..
mybe he goes to his mum home..
at the time, i tell to jasman .. i should back Now.. its to late for me..
and he find amon for me..
and i just leave the wedding.. i felt so sorry for juned.. i ve nothing to gift for his sista wedding.. so bad.. sorry to sy for juned..
and im awayy ~ i look at my back.. juned like 'blur'..
and im away.. at the time too.. i just thinking about people at my home.. i scared they will push me.. and ask me for stupid question.. bcause i lie.. i dont hve a reason..

*in bus

i sat,he my back and on his front is amon..
they talk to much..
and im in my bad mood..
i put my earphone to my ears..
play some metal song..
load of volumee..
so i can't hear any sound around me, only the song..

*5minutes
bus stop at the station to pick up passenger..
one of they friends join the bus..
and i like Blurr.. hes just look on me.. grrr :p
and i open my earphone.
hear for theirs story..
almost gigs laa. and i put back my earphone to my ear..
*cont. the song.. bla bla bla ~

oohh.. forgot smething..
when we wait for buses.. we found mahmud..
and i looked at him..
not for sure, im still in my worried mood..
soo, i just look at him and looking for buses again..
mahmud talking with amonn.. i dont know wht they talkin' about..
man beside me.. i not look for himm..
i just wait for the bus..
i told to himm. just send me to klang only..
bcause.. i scared it being us more hard.. and he in bad condition..
he should hve for juned sista wedding.. okeh?

1hour ago..
pudu..
in train..
i've msg my sis that i back at the time..
give for inform..
no need any worried.. thats all..

*salak selatan..
im home..
open the door..
open my shoes..
my eyes looked around..
try to walk straight to room..
and he's ask me for one question..
"where u go?" wif "whos?"
i mean my brother..
and i reply.. "i walkk wif my friendss" that my true statement :)
and he plyed his ipad again..
and im at the room..
*sigh

i open my contect lens..
it hurt.. shit!
and im goin to bed..
rest my body..

conclusion-- what the hell wif all my worried.. theirs nothing happen SHELNAH. believe ur self.. try be strong wif ur life. this is ur life.. ! ok ! dont be stupid in ur bed.. cannot look around.. see around at out there. dont be blind wif ur stress ! the day is sunday !!! sunday for u enjoy ur self.. shit thinking for people alwys thinking about shit !! it u shit.. bye ~

in this situationn too..
i've complete my mission..
my mission is , tunaikan janji ny..
meet and give Salam for him..
and its done..
and oneday.. i wanna tell u smething..
mybe it hurt.. sorry to say..

to be xontinue

easy to come and easy to leave too.

someday~~~

my beats walk fast..

for the first text "hye?" (i just cant believe that u'll chat me..)

and the last test u gonna say "bye?"(sights)

easy to come , easy to leave too.. aite?

i just awake/asleep when u texting me . (morning/gudnight sweety?) 

                                         (love u sayang..)

but badly, that all is gone~~

wait,wait,and wait.. (but in my heart i just say "sabar") then i can smile .

i've choose the one men in my life to live in this life .

i've leave the one that i can't love in this life .

i change my number to the other number just for his life.

i closed my facebook and created a new fb for him .

BUT, this all just a things waste my times.

and now , i don't know to do anythings .

no one can't understands .

u leave me and don't give me a reason .

i don't 've anymore .

i'm empty but this all is not your fault mr.R.

-- first sight i fall, fall for the things that i can't, i think he's mine, but the answer is "not yours" i leave all the things for the one that i loves, and when he leave me,i have nothing, all is gone, i try to be the best for him but he's not the best for me, i try to forget but i can't  bcause , "how to forget if can't to forgot" , i swim to release my mine, i look at the cloud and say, "what happen to my life" .

he's getting engaged n married? oh, all the question have the answers .

so, takecare of her, love her, caring for her, maybe shes the one yg bertuah.

smile for u my heroes :))

to . mr.roby :)

last call for u, "takecare shel , i'm sorry , i can't" 

i will miss u :)) goodbyeee :')

mr.R :))

finally

finally , i got it . i wait for a long time to take it .
i had thinking for the night , morning and for everyday .
i looked its for again and again .
i wearing its in my dream .
looked people wear it before .
i wanna be the one by them .
so , now i am in they categories , jyeahh !!
thanks for the support . specially thanks to my dad ! =)

looked what the girl wear .

that i mean !

eheheh !

 "s" for my name shelnah .

only him :)

you the one that i cant forgot .

you the one that i can love .

and you the person that i mean and just ONLYONE that i miss forever .

for the short name i called him mr.m .

- dear mr.m , dont worry about the love i'd gave to you . i really meant to gve to u .special for u . 

you let me down if u leave me now .

i really2 love you .

imiss you for a longlonglong time .

for a second , minute's .

my heart was closed already after i hurt by someone "mr.s"

he's my love for a while also .

he's made me cant remind me to you anything , serious i cant remmbred bfore i at PLKN .

i know that just a memories to keep in my mind .

out of there , i leave u . and he leave me too .

i;m empty . my heard closed like i throw the keys for my heart to the sea .

i can't found it anymore . but , u came back to me and find the keys to open back the missing heart keys .

i just thinking about its . if i take back a keys from u to open back the heart . i scared the key missing for a second time and made disappointed feeling to us "me and you mr.m" .

i scared to made u hurt . i scared to made u cries dear's . BUT , i gave a change to you and accept you back . i try to love you like before . i give all my feeling and soul to you and made me really really love on you . 

and i know you to gave a everything for me . i just can love you but the end "idk" . so , here u nedd u know i love yeahh ? whatever happen at the end we need to accept it . last , ILOVEYOU MR.M .

this is my mr.m :)

love you sayang .

superstar

superstar ? what u mean of superstar .


hmm , yeah ~ sometimes i wanna being like superstar . super in all things . i was thikin' about fashion . really addicted wif fashion . style had playing around my mind . it so amazing . keep smile when i get something dresses i really wanted . some of people had talked about what i have wearing .

and said like this :

"how bad you wear that clothes , like "crissmas" summer " and she's glad a lot .

i thinks she's wrong about the sentences . comfortable aite ?
looked biggest to wear but that a style . i had look the shirt before on facebook site . the name of the site is "dollstore" . same design . i found the shirt at "sungai weng" . at theres , we can got a lot of different clothing . not so brand laa , but i proud to wear it . hhe . that also . see yaah !

nothing ??

hello blogger :)
here i come .
today , i wanna write something but i've nothing in my mind .
emmm . ok . soon i'll write on this blog . hhe . bye blogger :))

plkn ,

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